*deleted decided to delete that emo post of mine i had written ytd. it is constantly reminding me of my unhappiness, making me feel even more miserable now and then. so, it is time for me to get over it. things can't be changed once they happened. no point brooding over it. read something interesting this morning. in some way, it helped me to get back on my feet. LOL. i know this is fast, but i need to get over it! i refuse to surrender myself to fate. there is many things in life for me to discover and enjoy. certainly, happiness is something i want to achieve once again. when i do, i will definitely grab onto it and never let it go again. as my blog title say, happiness is the key. i failed to realise that all this while. took notice of it only recently. HAHA. honestly, i was seriously moody and depressed ytd night, even though no one in my family noticed me. i don't wish to affect anyone's mood. my happiness begins with me! hope this post will convey the message to those who care about me. i am fine. thanks for everything ya? =)). all the way, changhorng. appreciate yourself. =)). take care guys!
really disappointed in myself. sometimes, i just wish that i can be heartless. at least, i don't feel any pain. i'm really hurting. over you.once again, i teared.
opps. weeks since i last updated. i've been kind of busy this few weeks. well. another five more days before the june holiday arrives. can't wait till i'm able to catch up with my precious sleep. haven't been working hard for weeks already. my stupid mind keeps reminding me to procrastinate. thanks lots. roar. can't seems to motivate myself to study. pretty tired and exhausted. just 5 months more to go and i seems to be losing my momentum already. someone, push me please! i've been quite down lately. many things have happened, and i can't bring myself to talk it out with someone. i've been feeling lost these days. it will only take another few more days before i start blaming the world for everything. don't worry. i won't take it out on anyone. i'm just used to bottling everything up. =)). i think i seriously need a break. well. i'm going to ton at tch's house this friday again. hope i could make myself feel better. at least for a period of time. done with blogging! LOL. bye! in the past, it was you that i approached to share my troubles. right now, i've no one but myself.
lost. ycitairos bhyokdivr. nights.
at times, i find myself restricted to say anything, or even blog about anything. this blog is once my avenue to vent out all the anger within me. however, it ceased to work. even when typing this post, i had to keep erasing and retyping my sentence. i don't wish to stir up any troubles or any politics. just a few more months to go. i don't wish to explode. all this time, i tried my best to tolerate. apparently, right at this moment, i couldn't. but i will continue to stick with such attitude. of course, you can't get everyone to control and think the way you want them to think. i only wish they could control what they say. it hurts. it really do. honestly, i hate it. i hate it. so, mind your words.
is there a hidden agenda in it? i hope not. =)).
YO!~ cheer camp was fun. even though we didn't do much, but i miss having camp. i haven't had any camp in school for a long long long time le! experience was cool. went to school only at 10pm because i celebrate my mum's birthday! once again mummy, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =DD. before going back to school, i bathe to get rid of all the stench of bbq smell on me. then when i reach school, they are playing water bomb. in the end, drenched. LOL. what's the point of bathing? HAHA! came too late. that was the last thing they do. we cleaned up and went to watch movie, bring it on 3. amazing and stunning performance put up by them luh. physically impossible for me to reach that stage. HAHA. after which, slept on the table. i slept damn well lahhs. only woke up once to go toilet. seldom sleep so nicely. early in the morning, woke up to keep mats. after that, kena scolded by mrs oh for sudden change of plans in the proposal. suppose to have breakfast competition. in the end, we all decided to eat macs. oh well. forget it. then eat at macs. was seperated into two groups. those that took the bus went to causeway for macs, the rest who walk went to civics. vivo is super packed! so is sentosa! oh! groups of bangla looking at angmoh zarbor suntan. got one angmor totally took off her top and read magazine while lying down flat. these zarbor really damn open. LOL. as usual, do stunts in water! super fun luh! not when those bangla come and try to take photos of our cheerleading girls. best part, they form group. 3 people pretend to take photo while the cameraman take the photos. they stand strategically at spots where the girls are just behind them. THEN, the cameraman zooms to take photos of the girls instead of their friends. haiz. what to do. you can discriminate them and ban them from beaches. LOL. had dinner at banquet at vivo. warren, radzee, zhihui, huiching, wena and i talked about our own experience of ghost stories. seriously, i was damn scared at that moment. but on the way home, i forgot about it. HAHA. hmm. haven't been doing much these three days. tml i going to study liao. haha. procrastination is the theif of time! ROAR. bye guys! got photos i will upload de! HAHA. a'c giarg ti di oss tnal jih uie. irsu jih uie.
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