woah. it has been a long time since i last blogged. so sorry that i broke the promise for trying to blog everyday. i didn't meant to.

well well. as usual, packed with homework and tests. seriously, i am stressing out and already starting to lose my interest in studies. sometimes i wish i had one more year to get more well prepared for my As. damn!

lots of troubles within me. i just don't know how to put it across. blogging it all out will only stir up more problems for me. with so many politics happening around me, i don't wish to create more. but seriously, i had enough. i've been tolerating it. i really don't want to get angry. a joke said once is funny, but if it is repeated more than once, it will turn out to be an insult. and, it hurts. not to you, but to me. hope you realise that.

emo. why do i always feel this way? such a small thing can make me react so big. maybe i should learn to have more self-control and be strong mentally.

take care guys. thanks to all those reading my blog. at least you know me a bit better than the rest.

bye. i seems to get the message.

fatigue. extremely tired today. during lectures, i'm falling asleep. this always happen after pe lesson on the previous day. yawns.

played basketball in the hall today. full court with 4 quarters. damn fun. it has been ages since i last played basketball. oh guys! going for the tiger beer field trip doesn't excuse you from NAPFA! need to come back to school after that to take. =.=. seriously retarded.

oh well. nothing exciting to blog about. whole family is like having a cold war because of a small dispute over dinner. how lame. if my mum and sis could hold back their words, all of this wouldn't had happened. i was exceptionally quiet throughout dinner. things got worse right now. my dad flared up over inadequate details in a consent form given to him from my sister. if my dad was in a good mood, this wouldn't have happened. i'm like caught in the middle. all three of them are in a bad mood. i have no one to talk to! that's why i'm bored! i just got pretty irritated over the unreasonable argument between my sis and dad. just feel like asking them to shut up just now. LOL.

i think i go sleep le. nights! omkrivsydgycyrt. tnot'l oss a ryyd.

certainly and inevitably shocked. never see that coming honestly. neither do i wish that it is happening. perhaps more of like it had happened.

larmy uieh dymalairl ohy cody, a'c pivyhsyll ti ltip uie. pyhnopl, lsivsu ommypt at. ij miehly, a'c lod. a hylpymt uieh mniamy. aj at'l cy, a vass di tnot locy tii. a osvoul nozy ti lou vnot a'c giarg ti lou ardahymtsu. couby at gazyl cy cihy tacy ti tnark obiet vnytnyh vnot a'c obiet ti lou al cotehy yriegn ih lyrlatazy yriegn. tnyhyjihy, a phyjyh bsiggarg obiet at. a'c osvoul ojhoad ti yxphyll cu jyysargl tivohdl uie. couby bymoely a osvoul virdyh vnot viesd uieh hylpirly by saky aj a load licytnarg ar pohtamesoh. yzyr ol a'c tuparg tnal pilt, a mor't ltip tnarkarg obiet at. ><. ojhoad tnot uie vass by orghu. ojhoad tnot uie vass hytnark uieh dymalair bymoely ij tny miccyrtl a cody, ijtyr yrdyd ep cokarg cy jyys bod. a dir't vort at ti noppyr. =)). couby tnal al vnu a ryzyh nod tny miehogy ti olk uie aj a ltass ltord tnot mnormy. couby tnal al vnu a silt uie. a hyjely ti nyoh tny thetn. ar lniht, a'c o silyh.

i'm sorry that i have to blog in this language. i don't wish people to come asking me about who and what is it about. and if you do know how to decipher it, don't spread. thanks. forgive me, alright?

take care guys! stay happy! =)).

3 days holdiays are coming to an end. spent these three days procastinating. LOL. so sick of my study life, but i really do miss my secondary school life all of the sudden. compared to JC, secondary school homework is a piece of cake. lessons in secondary school are also far much relaxed. miss those times. after school, i never had to worry about homework. it's either basketball or soccer. we can play till 7pm without worrying whether we had studied enough. after a day in school, i can choose to sleep on days with no homework and not revise at all. how cool. in comparison to current, nightmare! i don't have to further elaborate. you guys understand better than i do. haha.

not really looking forward to this week. got NAPFA test and maths test. oh well. i just feel like sleeping and pretend to be sick tml. xD. LALA.

cut the crap. time for bed. nights~! uie uie uie. onnn.

andrina: i think so! its our last cheer camp anyway!

well. i'm happy that i recovered from my bad flu. today, i'm able to concentrate in lectures and tutorials better. it's a long day today. i am kinda tired right now. oh ya! i got B for PW. actually, there is nothing to be proud about. most people in our school get either B or C. i tink less than 10% got A. at least i'm relieved that all the effort that we have put in paid off in the end. i was so worried that i will cause the group to get a lousy grade. haha. WAY TO GO, IJ077!

i've been pushing myself hard every pe lessons to improve my 2.4km run timing. next wednesday is NAPFA already. all the best for me! =DD.

i'm seriously bored right now. i think i will be turning in soon. yawns.

nights guys! going out with my dad to sao mu tml!

bye!

note: mind your attitude towards me. i'm starting to feel otherwise.

janelle: i just realised that that phrase is often used by you. LOL.
jups: you're right. yup. still living~

procrastination. you never cease to disappear in my life. you are constantly haunting me down. just when i have the thoughts and willpower to fight against you, i start to look at the bright side of life. eventually, i shove you aside. optimistic mindset doesn't necessary solve everything. this is one classic example. even right at this moment, you are infiltrating my mind. how nice of you. if 'you' are knowledge and intelligence, i wouldn't mind. seriously.

as usual, one weekend wasted. what i've been constantly doing is sleep. keep having headache. i woke up exceptionally early today. i initially thought my parents were out to the market. but when i was sitting down reading the newspaper, my mom suddenly popped out. i was shocked. how observant i was. i should have noticed their bedroom door was closed. it is only open when they are not inside. haha. how dumb.

dad brought us to visit my grandparents. they love us a lot. everytime we go, they show their concern for us. damn cool. today, my grandpa gave both my sister and i 20 dollars each. the reason is because he struck 4d weeks ago. LOL. i was taken by surprise. suddenly, i felt richer! HAHA.

the rest of my afternoon was playing PSP as usual, then sleep. it was moments ago when i watched MI 3. interesting show. right now, trying to think of things to blog about. apparently, i can't. people are talking to me online. well, i have to answer them by ending my blog post now. don't worry. i'll blog more often. =))

bye bye!

it's never too late to take a step. =DD.

emotions start to overwhelm you. you simply can't think straight. every actions in your life right from this moment are affected by your wild imagination. things you yearn for may or may not come true. most of the time, it WILL not come true. this is making me feel depressed. nevertheless, you hope that there is this small little hope that keeps you working harder and to achieve what you want. well, i guess it happens to you once before. am i right to say so? haha.

oh well. gotten back all my block test results. disastrous! LOL. flipping through the papers, looking for any possible marks to add to my final score. apparently, you will always fail! =((. failed geog and gp[as always]. borderline pass for bio. xD. C for both maths and chem. something much more presentable in the report slip as compared to the rest. all the grades are way below my expectations! time to buck up!

pretty tired right now. the weather today is terribly hot. went for a swim when i came home. damn shiok i tell you. LOL. spend the rest of the afternoon playing PSP. finish this post, i'm off to watching tv! i wanna have a good rest today!

oh suck! cheer camp discussion is on the way. the dates have been changed. currently, the proposed dates are 30 april to 1st may. i'm not very sure whether i can make it because my mum's birthday is on the 30th. i hope the dates would somehow change, so that i can worry less about making a decision.

nothing much to blog about too. yawns! off to watching tv! bye!

on a random note, i believe in myself! xD.