this is so freaking retarded. not only cheer is going down, other CCAs such as touch rugby, soccer girls, canoeing, floorball guys. about 8 CCAs going down. wtf.

god damn it. no freaking J1 for us this year? i'm so awaiting the next batch of J1 going cheer lahhs. zzz. please! you can't say that you going to suspend cheer because there is not enough ppl joining right? people didn't even get a chance to train with us yet, how you know that they wouldn't join? maybe they didn't put us as first choice because they are unsure about it and they have yet to ask?

cheerleading have established in IJC and is the only neighbouring JC with cheerleading as a CCA lahhs. furthermore, we have been doing real well in it. every year, we are WINNING something. please. oh well. i can't vent my anger here. or else school will come hunting me down. those who understand my plight and all the cheerleaders plight, thank you. most of all, it isn't me that really got hit the most. is our teacher-in-charge, Mrs Jen. omg. i tell you. you can seriously tell how passionate is she towards cheer and all the effort she put into it. now, its all gone. HOW NICE.

ac jhyokarg daloppiartyd vatn tny lmniis dymalair. lyhaielsu. a oc.

zzz. this is so freaking lame. =.=.

bye.

one day wasted. down with so many homework. i panicking now. help. uie der dyhlyhzy cy ot oss. a mor't di orutnarg ti coky uie noppu. silt nipy ar culysj.

wena: orh. * wicked laughter* xD.

this week is disaster sia. total of three tests and the last one is yet to come. tml having geog test and apparently, you can see that im not studying at all now. LOL. got the urge to blog. monday mock spa was fine. got back the paper. not too bad. HAHA. maths test haven't get back lahhs. but i make careless mistake during the paper. after go home sleep then realised what i didn't do. by the time, TOO LATE.

been damn physically stressing this whole week. right now. damn tired. i overstretched my biceps just now during pe. now, i can't lift anything with my hand. currently supporting my hand on the table. LOL. damn lahhs. tml have cheer somemore. roar. hope faster recover. homework homework and homework have made me damn tired lahhs! i seriously have not enough sleep. =((. waiting for weekend to make up for my lack of sleep. haha.

have been on the craze of playing facebook game this whole week. it is influencing and have been distracting me from studying. =((. maybe i seriously should quit sia. but it's addictive. right, 0824A? HAHA. everyone playing lahhs! yawns

don't know what to blog le. LOL. sorry. i shall blog more often right guys? HAHA. =)). tny qeyltair uie olkyd cy tnot dou vol lehphalarg. oppohyrtsu, a dir't artyrd ti gyt izyh uie. a ltass saky uie o sit. ryxt tacy ri ryyd ti olk cy. =DD.
BYE!

yihui: yup yup! currently so!
jups: haha. ya lo. this is emo song. for people to forget someone that kind.
suria: HEYYS. surprise you tag my blog. haha. =DD.
chinhou: taking care. LOL.
eileen: it isn't fun at all. seriously. poly is better. =)).

woah woah woah. this whole week is hectic. the weeks to come is not going to any better luh. =((. flooded with tests next week. omg. two tests have been slaughtered this week. chem test result is okayys. i passed. bio i not sure. next week is chem mock spa, maths integration test and geog test. =((.

ahh. your mind can't stop thinking of what to do next. you simply have too much to do. damn it. homework itself is enough, be it tests. ROAR. okayys. heck care about studies. still thinking whether to perform on sunday for 50 dollars. but got tests luh. HAIZ.

CCA FAIR. oh well. did a 16 secs cheer performance on stage. oh well. it was well done but a little bit too short. =((. hope more JC1 join cheer this year man. this year cohort is like all muggers. all going for consultation at the start of the year. omg. scary.

i also dunno what to blog about sia. HAHA. tml is valentine's day. a special day for couple and couple-to-be lahhs. HAHA. today isn't a good day to ask someone out for a day cause it's FRIDAY THE 13th. oh well. nothing bad happened today. therefore, it is probably a myth. HAHA.

aiyahh. i go youtube le lahhs! BYE BYE!
don't yearn for something you know you can't get(:

David Archuleta
A Little Too Not Over You

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It is for the best
I know it is
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Memories suppose to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back
Yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, ohhh.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you

Not over you, ooh.

nice song. listen(;

ex-classmate: who are you sia! leave your name lehx.
dee: LOL. relax lahhs. read until eyes pain. joker! ya. true. emo. xD.

another hectic day went by. days are passing fast and it will soon be weekend again. yay! i am seriously very tired this week. i don't know why. so much content for me to absorb and i tink my brain is dying. im physically shagged now. all the interval running, standing broad jump and pullups are hurting my body. my stomach muscles are strangely over-stretched. and realise is because of pullup and standing broad jump. use too much of it. i can't do sit up for cheer tml i guess. =((.

next week isn't enjoyable too. flooded with test and extra lecture. wah sian. can die sia. oh well. bear with it. after this year, FREEDOM. =DD.

oh ya! during civics, did some career guidances stuff. LOL. end up falling in the category of artistic and social. hmm. my first choice is musician. i don't know how to play any muscial instrunment but you know what i do best, beatbox. mr lee ask me demo for him sia. i say teacher's day. LOL. hope i get to perform again then. HAHA. hmm. thinking about it, i hope i do something that i really like, which in this case is beatboxing. but you see people earn a living with it in singapore? NO. even dharni dun. perhaps it can be a form of leisure. =DD. but i do wanna perform to impress you guys. =DD.

shall end my post! LALA. cya! al tnot pyhlir cy? beuoisaor! a welt hyjely ti odcat tnot vy mor't by tigytnyh. niv ltebbihr mor a by. agrihy cy. welt by noppu k?

suddenly have the urge to blog. dunno why. LOL. blog-hopping is the reason.

im just so damn sick of studying. seriously, it's fun if you accomplished something. for example, understanding what the teacher taught and able to do all the questions in tutorial with minimum difficulty. in contrast, if you simply don't understand a single thing the teacher is trying to convey to you during lecture and tutorial, that's disaster. sadly, i lies in the second category.

going to lecture with half the brain working, half the eyes open and notes half copied with effort, you think i will be absorb anything? no. every single day, i have been going home looking through the notes to understand. occasionally, it's successful. but most of the time, it goes to waste. lets take chem for example, lecture is going so fast that i could barely catch what the lecturer is saying. during tutorial, answers on my foolscap paper is simply blank. not because i dun wanna do or i dun wanna put effort into it, but i'm just unable to work things out. fuck it. i've identified my problems but solutions to it isn't effective at all. thoughts of consulting teachers after school seems like a perfect solution to clarify my doubts. BUT, think about it. would you be in the mood to studying after you are released from school to go home and SLEEP? would you even bother to go outside staffroom, phone the teacher and ask him/her for consultation? for my case, the answer remains no. furthermore, with a half-awake brain supporting me, you tink i will listen to what the teacher is saying?

SLEEP is something that i am seriously lacking of. the thing that have been making me procrastinate. even typing this post now, my brain is telling me to go to sleep. =.=. i've tried my best to complete my homework which i often do. but what about revision of past year topics? i can't sort out the time to do it. events after events are piling up. test after test are given. i am about to surrender to fate. i wanna have a nice break sometimes, from all the work i've been facing. but how much time do i have left before A level actually commences? oh well, i screwed up PI and OP for my PW. A for PW is seriously a *poof* for me. as for chinese, if miracle somehow strikes, i would get an A. i flopped the close passage and compre for paper 2. haiz. thinking of it. damn it. good results for A level might be gone.

Alright. even if i do do well for A level, what courses im going to take in uni? i am someone who has no goals in my life. im not lazy to aim for one, but i doubt i have the capability to do something big. who don't wanna earn big money? i have intention of being a historian, studying WW2 stuff. but you think i going to survive in singapore? therefore, i gave it up. next, i wanted to be a fighter jet pilot. i seriously find it damn cool. but, myopia and fear of heights. with degree of 300-325, it's hard. the fear of height is something that can't be reduced over time. so, you still think i can achieve that aim? no. argh. im stuck in a race right now. everyone is putting their effort, pushing themselves forward to reach the end where they will see themselves as who they wanna be. me? having second thoughts of whether to continue the race or just give it up and think that the rest are just by chance that they are successful? unknown future lies ahead of me.

friends. i do appreciate that i have friends around me who do care for me. sad to say, sometimes, there is something about them that day that makes them somehow different. i don't know how to explain it well in words. so if you dun understand or misunderstand what i'm saying, i'm sorry. the way they behave sometimes towards you are damn damn good. you just feel that you just had someone that understands you and you feel that they are your true friends. this is when you learn to cherish them, making the effort to do things for them, be there for them when they need someone. honestly, i do treat friends very well. i usually tried my best to do so, but sometimes i do fail. no one is perfect. but, have you ever come upon a situation where you treat that person damn well, but he/she don't seems to appreciate it? all the effort you put in just going down the drain. i am not expecting a repay or anything. but the point of backstabbing isn't something nice that you should repay me with. putting on a facade will just hurt me more. im sick of it. there is no particular person i am referring to. it is just a random point anyway. oh well. let's continue. being bossed around isn't something nice too. helping friends to do something is definitely fine with me. but, APPRECIATE IT FOR GOD DAMN SAKE. don't expect me to agree to every single thing you say. please be in my shoes. okayys? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. showing me that you are unhappy because of it is fucking irritating. i have been taking all this deep down in my heart for months. i have no one to share it to. therefore, thank you for this invention of blog. i am not trying to get everyone to agree with me. but, i seriously had enough. making a small matter big by arguing back or shouting at you isn't going to solve anything, so i take a step back. but you are pushing me further with your fucking attitude.

Tag replies:
wena: yup yup. working hard. =DD. all the way!
T.A.G. haha. another beatboxer here! take care!

chinese new year is seriously fun. im not saying abt the happiness of getting angbao. okayys, im lying! LOL. but also, the time you spend with friends! haha. went to junhua house on saturday. feel bad missing cheer. but i will work hard myself. don't worry! will be there next saturday.

went to his house at 10 with des. first to reach. played mahjong with no money initially. cause the ken and des dun wanna play money. so played for fun. but after when more ppl come, then got two table of mahjong. HAHA. i went to play got money de. keep winning small. total for the day is like 90cents! LOL. but i learn ways to play big already! HAHA. oh well. also got lao yu sheng and eat steamboat in the night. damn memorable. had a great time there! best part. kenneeth was losing 13 dollars plus in mahjong. then me and gj sit beside him. the power of three help him then in the end help him win 5 dollar summore sia! xD. HAHA. here is the group photo! let the pictures explain everything!

Group photo!
Lao Yu Sheng time!
posing for picture! LOL!
HUAT AR HUAT AR!
YUM. its nice sia! first time actually eat! most of the time is lao finish le, run away le!

Bachelor group shot! LOL. damn funny!
Another group photo!

LOL. damn fun! oh well. next year we meeting up again! but most likely, i will be the only one that is botak there! cause go NS le mahhs! T.T. oh well. see me in next year photo ba! it is a yearly gathering! this is 2008 CNY pictures!


HAHA. hmm! tml school start le! oh well. more crowded because of new J1. come to IJC. JOIN CHEER! no regrets! =DD.

CYA! =DD. tnal al tny jiehtn tacy a dhyoc ij uie. OHGN. niv a valn at vol hyos! DOCR! a ltass saky uie osit.