hmm. i enjoy every weekend at home. even though it is just a mere one day thing, but at least i know i'm safe. there isn't a need to think about whether i am able to wake at at 5.15am to prepare to fall in. i would say i can really rest well at home.

secondly, the only reason i yearn for a book out is because of my family. i will definitely devote my time to them. i miss talking to my dad, my mum's food and my sister laughter. well, you don't really get to hear, eat and listen to all of those.

hmm. 6 months in NS alr. and i am still feeling the same way. well, i guess it has really changed how i think. at least i am planning in every stage of my life. and i know there isn't time to waste outside. going through NS alone without a partner makes me feel really bored sometimes. i envy those with gf, someone who they could talk to. nevertheless, i think i would not have time with her even if i have one. LOL. so best to be independent for now.

like what my dad always say, you need to be strong and independent. you are a guy.

haha! lame reasoning but it do sound true. =))